sleep? who needs sleep?

my head's kind of a mess. i usually like to think it's a good mess ("creative!" "quirky!" etc..) but today it's quirkily annoying. i had some weird dreams last night, anxiety dreams, that kind of sort of made sense... but whatever the Main Extra Anxiety Dream was about eludes me, just leaving me today with a palpable distrust of slides.

i recently started teaching piano with some regularity. i have 4 students: one girl my age, a middle-aged woman, and 2 kids. i've played piano since i was four, and i took private lessons until i graduated college, but technically i'm not a trained instructor or anything. however, the lessons have all gone well, and i realized i didn't have much to worry about, i'm a pretty decent teacher, hopefully they don't secretly hate me, etc etc.

but last night i had all these bizarre dreams about teaching, mostly to little kids, and i was running around frantically, overbooked, missing lessons and getting people mad at me, and unable to correct these really egregious errors all my students had, and then there was something really dire involving a slide, but i don't remember that part.

i guess it makes sense. sort of. i'm waiting to hear back from the doctor's office about some tests that may have scary results, and i suppose that's what i'm anxious about and why i can't sleep and why i'm having anxiety dreams. it's odd that they're taking the form of little kids who insist on playing piano with their hands curled into fists despite my best efforts to correct them. or the form of playground slides steeped in anxiety. i really wish i could remember what the hell happened with that slide.

so! that was fun for everyone. feel free to reminisce about how i used to write interesting posts about dreams here.